I’ve been a tad MIA this weekend. It was just really busy.
My boyfriend moved into his new apartment with his older sister this weekend. I went over there last night to check it out and watch the Mavs kick ass. I had it set in my mind that I’d talk to him about whether he sees me with him when he envisions his future, but I chickened out because we were having a good time. My mother decided to tell me yesterday morning that she’d basically disown me in a way, if when I moved out, I decided to be with him (she still doesn’t know that we’re dating). So I have to make sure that this relationship is 100% real and going somewhere, especially since lately it’s been a little off balance. I believe in my heart that he wouldn’t waste my time and energy like this, if he didn’t see a future with me. He obviously knows and was there for all the drama when my parents found out we were together. So I know and hope to God that he wouldn’t do that to me. But nonetheless, the conversation has to happen to reassure me that I’m making the right decision by staying with him. I feel bad for him because there’s a lot of pressure to make this relationship work to prove my parents wrong in the end, but if he believes that I’m the one he wants, it’ll be fine. He always said in the past that he doesn’t want anyone but me.
I don’t know what’s going to happen and I wish I could predict the future, but we’ll see what happens with this conversation…when I grow the balls to bring it up.